i can't take it anymore

I really want to cry out loud . . .

but

all i can do is show u a smile

saying " i m OK "

but in the end 

i cries when no ones around

i don't want to show

and i won't

I AM REALLY TIRED 

let me go please 

*talking to parents

i wish i could talk like that in front of my parents

but no

never 

i will swallow the pain inside of me 

yes i can 

because i am Clare

. . .